Life plans

This year, I am going to turn 23 and yet I am still clueless. What is it that we're suppose to do in this life? I read about people who got married at this age, in fact, my mom was pregnant with me when she's just 21 (I think). I'm not sure if I'm ready to settle down. I wanted to have kids but I don't think I am ready for that kind of responsibility. I just want to still be young and active when my kid is at my age now. 

I don't think that I am even ready to take care of my own life. Maybe it's because of convenience? Maybe I should try and live on my own, support myself in order to grow up. I should stop depending on other people and just try and figure things out myself for a change. 

What is the first step to do? I guess I gave to make this decision myself too because even if someone tells me what to do, in the end, it's my choice to make, it's the road that I take is the thing that will count. 

Sometimes, I just wonder about all the successful people, how on earth did they get there? Maybe it's all about the connections, who you know and who they know. I got my first real job through some connection, got into my practical attachment job with the help of my boss here, so maybe it's easier.

There are people who are lucky enough to have someone who can at least guide them through their life until they are ready to take on it themselves, as for me, I need to draw my own map and I suck at it. 

A step towards a better life

Today, I went to Politeknik Kota Kinabalu, to register and take on my last subject - Maths. I'm not suppose to take this subject again because I can do it with my eyes close (literally) but then I fell asleep while studying and didn't wake up in time for the paper. It was  a mistake. I don't see it in a negative way though because I believe there must be a reason why I didn't wake up. Maybe I will get into a serious accident or something. Furthermore, "A mistake isn't a mistake unless it can't put right " - Quoted from The Undomestic Goddess written by Sophie Kinsella.

Well, I am actually still here in Politeknik waiting for the Ketua Jabatan. The day is hot and rainy. I've went to look for the KJ twice before and he's not there, so today I've come -prepared- With a book and my lappie!

The book is a selected edition by Reader's Digest and I've read 2 of them, this is the third one. Four stories in one book and it's a mix of Romance, Thriller, Murder and so on. They're all by famous authors. The one I'm reading now is by Martin O'Brien, Lee Child, Sophie Kinsella and Jeffrey Archer. In fact, I've read The Undomestic Goddess twice already. Two thumbs up for that book!

Reader's Digest Selected Edition.

Well, no exercise for me today, but I climb a three-storey building twice and walked to the car park twice so that's enough exercise today, plus my muscles especially in the calves area hurt! I've waited for  40 minutes and When the KJ is finally in his office, the PA just do his own thing and I waited for another 5 minutes before I go to her and ask can I go in now?? She is very incompetent. This is the first I met Mr. KJ and he's a very nice person and easy to talk with! Today was a relieve but then tomorrow I must go and finish up everything because by the time I'm done registering, it took me almost 3 hours and it's after office hours. 

The only thing I dislike about today is the fact that I have to remove my nail polish because of the rules. But then, I wouldn't want to go and meet important people with blue nails right? 

The actual beginning of 2011

Since that I have decided to do something this year, I must be content and do it. Yesterday, the only thing I did was update this blog, games on facebook, and watch 3 movies! I can't do that for the rest of the year.

So, today, I decided to go out for a walk, and a little jog. I was suppose to do it this morning but I can hardly open my eyes. Slept for 10 hours straight and the rest of the day I do nothing.

This year, I must lose at least 5 kg. I have 12 months to do that, so, I only need to lose approx. 0.4 kg per month. What's so hard about that?

I currently weight 55kg. Which is overweight according to the BMI index. Any advice on losing the fats?

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Since that it's raining and I am feeling too lazy and dangerous to get out of the house, I decided to just do a FAT BURNING BELLY DANCE routine I found on Youtube. It's between 30-40 minutes I'm not so sure because I never reach the end of it. There's four parts of it and I only manage up to half of the second part. FOR NOW. Here's the video:-

While I'm warming up, I started to sweat. That was at the first 8 minutes of the video. Tomorrow, I promise myself that I will do up to part 3!

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I am going to pamper myself by taking a long bath and play with my nails with my 3 new nail colours, 2 from The Face Shop in Blue (BL606) and Purple (PP409), and another one is a gift I get from Christmas gift exchange in the office, Wine Red from Skin Food, I don't know what the code is.

I will put on some pictures later on because I don;t have a decent camera here with me.

Hello 2011!!

Hey peeps!!! Happy New Year!!!

Today is a historical day!!! 1/1/11. Which comes in every centennial. I have to Google to look for that word. Something that happens every 100 years.

I bid goodbye to 2010 with a lot of joy because in that particular year, I've achieved nothing. NOTHING!!! I'm sure it's all because of me and there's nothing I can do about it now. Only now I have come to realize that I could have done more if I just try and put myself more out there.

So, this year, I will be pursuing my degree in September and I am going to give my best. I've learned my lesson and I know that no one will help you to progress. If you want something to happen, MAKE IT HAPPEN! Friends and family may guide you but that's all they can do. Talk and support. Now, here I am with high spirit wanting to make the best out of 2011!

First off, I have been working in the same place for the past 4 and a quarter year, and all the time I am there, not moving forward or gain anything more than what I need know. I can do better. I know that. I just don't want to do it before because I am very comfortable in where I stand. It's okay for now but not for the rest of my life. I made a decision to at least try and get more experience in working with the Press and it could come in handy later on. Be prepared to read news written by me, PHEADRA M. CHIN in the newspaper somewhere next month.

I have 8 months to try and get the knowledge and my colleagues are very supportive. I am really grateful to them! While I'm at it, I will be doing some other things, like saving some money. I only manage to keep RM50 in the bank without touching it in 2010.

So, get ready to get more from me this year and I will definitely write down about my journalism experience!

Decision, mistakes & regrets or Happily ever after

Have you ever thought of wanting to do some things but you are just too scared and you're not going to take the risk? Well, I am always in that situation. Used to be in that situation!! Now, I'm beginning to see life differently, Life is what you make it!

Making decisions is the hardest thing that can be in our life, worst than a broken heart, they can mend, but wrong decisions will stay there forever and ever for the rest of your life. Sounds bad? There's a catch. Like what I said, life is what we make it, decisions is only a way to live our life. Wrong decisions? That's what we have to face as the consequences.

The thing about making decision is to know what's best for you. You'll never know unless you try it. There might be something special waiting for you in the decision that you make. I always believe that behind something, there's always something else. So, if I make the wrong decision, it's not wrong, it's just not right for you and then from there, move on, choose another path to walk on. There's one special path for you.

When you feel like you've totally screw up in life, DON'T! It's just a feeling that we feel when some things in your life is a mess. Look on the bright side, start anew. There's more to life ahead of us. Eventually, you'll find the right one for you, be it in life or love. You can only find them if you keep on searching, keep on making decision. When it don't feel right, try and find the cause of the feeling. If you still feel the same, QUIT! Try something else, what is there to lose? Your current life that gives you a major headache!! You might think that you can fix it, but think of how many times have you tried before? Why not hit a new road, and drive ahead. I believe that there's always a U-Turn if it really is for you. I believe in fate and destiny.

Everyone in the world is created for something. That is what we need to figure out. Why do I even exist? A question that most of us, or maybe all of us had ever think of. That is to make decisions and have no regrets. Life is what we make it. If we fail our exam, it's because we didn't work on it, if we are broke in the middle of the month, its because we didn't budget our spending, if we are tired, its because we didn't get enough rest.

Of course, what we do is just plan, GOD is the one who decides on everything. So, in everything we do, remember to Pray to God and hope for the best.

To be continued, I'm too sleepy to think now.

Lots of Love,