What I think of myself

As a person, I think that I am just a very simple person, doesn't talk too much (I used to), sometimes insecure but I don't really give a damn about what other people think of me. A very clever and bright girl but I just need to really build my road to success because I am very lazy. I need a lot of motivation and I love all the suspense and drama in my life. I am very fussy and particular. It's like if I called someone and ask "where are you?" don't just tell me that you're on the way, tell me exactly where so I can estimate the time and I know if you're lying when you finally reach the meeting point. I love cleanliness but I love to laze around more.

I care a lot about my friends and family.. I sometimes even scared to let my mom drive alone just in case something happen to her. Now I leave it all up to fate. Whatever happens, just let it be. Sometimes I think that I don't have any feelings. I think that my presence doesn't make any difference in anyone's life.

I like to help people a lot. It's very hard for me to say no. Now I am learning to do that. I don't really like to go out that much. I just love to go out and relax with my friends. I am quite a shy person and I won't talk to you if I think you don't know me, or I don't know you that well.

(I am having a major headache right now. I lose my appetite and I don't know why. So, I only ate little bit of cake and few other stuff and that's all.)

Tendency to be lazy

I am not sure about anyone else, as for me, I have this habit where I sometimes am very lazy to do anything at all. When I do, I will just sleep in the whole day because I think that living in this world is so tiring. Being yourself is tiring, doing things you’re suppose to is tiring and even to get up to get a glass of water is tiring. I love to sleep and dream where it’s very easy to forget about the reality for a while. Dreamland is wonderful. You can do just about anything and don’t have any mutual feelings and it actually makes me happy.

Putting off the work that you’re supposed to do is not a good thing. I had a hard time doing my assignments and day by day, it get more and more and I don’t know when will I have the urge to do it as I need to do it in order to get good grades in school. Well, I have to admit that I am quite a bright student in class. I can understand a lot of things in one simple explanation compared to some others but still, this habit is killing me.

I guess it’s just because I am tired every single day. Working and studying at the same time is not an easy job, I am wondering how can I cope with it myself and of course, look at where it leads me to – BECOMING A BIG FAT LAZY ASS. I sure do learn my lessons and I will not repeat it again in my degree years. Goodbye self earn money ($$$).

Having my own money to spend is a very good thing. I can have anything that I want (affordable of course) and can actually brag about it. The adrenaline rush that runs in my veins on payday is very ... I don’t even know how to describe it and then of course, it will bring me to complete happiness as I will do what most girls will do – SHOPPING!!!!

Anyways, those are couple of things that I have to bid goodbye to in order to get a better life, better pay and better shopping experience. :D

I am already out of topic so, that just a thought before I go to bed. Good night.

A note of apology

Dearest people,

I am very sorry for not updating my blog, (as if i have lots of followers) but I do know that I have some friends who really care about the things that am, or have been going through.

Busy as it seems, I really think that blogging is the best way to release the stress. Inspiration comes to me best during the times of depression. It always seems like everyone is happy but we'll never know what is in their mind, I will not tell people what's in my mind. I might say it out loud but in a different way. It will always be a metaphor, something people will have to think for themselves.

I am going on to another topic now, stop right now. :D

love all.